I’ve mentioned it plenty of times before but I’m going to say it again for the sake of this post.
I am one of those naturally smart and gifted people. Never had to study, never had to put effort into anything and was still a straight A student and just successful in about everything I do.
But I am also someone who generally doesn’t care about social status and success as seen in the eyes of society.
I don’t care about money or material things or what people think about me.
I have my own interests and hobbies and I don’t want to be stuck in this rat race.
So, even though I don’t care about social status, money, and material things, I am still constantly effected by these things.
Nowadays you need money to survive. Even water costs money. We are born on this floating rock in the middle of nowhere, yet we’re paying other people to live, shit doesn’t make sense.
We don’t choose to be born, yet we have to constantly pay for basic necessities to survive. Things that are provided by Earth naturally and for free.
With intelligence comes constant thinking and analyzing. I can never shut my brain off. And I am just surrounded by stupidity and corruption that doesn’t allow me to live the life I want to live. And since my brain is always thinking, I can never just ignore these things. I can never just relax and live my life the way I want to.
I feel pressure 24/7 because I was born extremely gifted and therefore I feel obligated to contribute to this world.
My whole life I’ve just wanted to live a primitive life. I want to live in the woods and survive off the land and just relax and enjoy life for what it is.
Instead I am trapped in this rat race. This endless cycle of buying pointless shit and paying bills and working just to survive.
Which brings me to my next point.
I have had so many opportunities over the years to make a lot of money. I have gotten so many lucrative job offers because of my intelligence.
But I am not interested in this shit. I want to do things that help the planet. I want to end suffering, I want to make the world a better place.
Ignorance is Bliss
Everyday I ponder on the idea of “would I be happier if I was simple minded and ignorant like everyone else.” And yes, I think I would be. The majority of the population can’t even comprehend that there is way more to life and that it is very possible to living much happier lives.
Everyone is programmed and conditioned to believe that the point of life is to go to school, get a degree, find a decent paying job and just work the rest of your life buying meaningless objects and paying bills.
But being intelligent, I can see that this whole societal construct is complete bullshit and is ultimately stupid as fuck.
I could easily make 6 figures a year if I wanted to. I could be very “successful” because of my intelligence. But this would not bring me happiness.
So now I’m stuck having to live in this little pointless cycle whilst knowing there is so much more to life.
I feel like I’m the only sober one at a party full of drunks.